Christmas 2013

Dec 27, 2013

Without my parents, brother and my boys, I'm not sure I would have made it through Christmas 2013. This year was been a whirlwind. Full of raw emotions that I'm not sure I still understand. This is the first year in over 7 years that I've been alone on Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I'm OK with being alone, however it is much more difficult when children are involved. 

Christmas is about family, love and togetherness. And that is just what this Christmas was all about. The boys and I were surrounded by people who love us unconditionally. They are there for us in good times and bad...through thick and thin. Because after all, isn't that what family is supposed to be? The one person who has your back when no one else does? 

One thing I've definitely learned is the people you think have your back and are there for you no matter what are NO where to be found when things get tough. They are the first to turn their back and pretend they saw and know nothing.

For me, Christmas 2013 was new traditions. A new "normal" for the boys and I....picking out our first live Christmas tree in over 14 years. This is the "first" of many to come. 

So with 2014 knocking on our door, I look forward to new beginning, making new memories and new traditions. The past year has been full of broken promises, disappointment and heartache. The past does not define our future.  The best is yet to come!


It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year....

Dec 17, 2013


There's No Future in the Past...

With every post I always say that I'm going to post more often.  And before I know it, time has gone by, things have changed and it's been months since I last blogged.

I'm not even sure where to start.  This year didn't exactly start off like I had ever imagined.  By March every hope, dream and prayer I had seemed to be crushed.  My marriage of 6 1/2 years was over.  I prayed so hard that God would bring us back together and we would be able to reconcile.  And then it became very clear to me.  Pastor Perry Noble with preached on a series and one thing I learned was God loves me, is always with me and has greater plans for me.  No matter how hard I prayed, we have to remember to pray according to God's will.  I truly had to accept that maybe I wasn't praying according to God's will and just maybe it wasn't meant to be.  Just admitting this alone brings tears to my eyes and is hard to accept.  I've remained silent about so much and to protect my children, I choose to still do so.

Instead of focusing on the negative, I chose to focus on goodness and blessings in my life.  I have a job with Berchtold Corporation and work with some awesome people.  People that I consider my friends.  They have went from being complete strangers to helping wipe away tears when  I needed someone the most to just be there for me.  You truly do find out who your friends are and who will turn their back and pretend they saw nothing.  To my true friends, I will be forever grateful.  God has truly put you in my life for a reason.  You have been like His angels helping me see my way.


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